Earlier this year, I booked an appointment with a psychic and somatic healer, Cindy, who works out of Los Angeles. I booked this appointment out of desperation for soul-level healing, but I experienced something more amazing.
My session started with sitting in Cindy’s cozy and chic office, where she asked about my life and future plans. As I shared, Cindy began channeling my loved ones. Of course, my grandfather showed up on time and was silly, but my grandmother also arrived. From what I detected, it was my paternal grandmother and she was asking me to forgive my father, which is something I am always working on.
Later, la Virgen de Guadalupe became present and Cindy kept asking me why she was coming up. At first, I couldn’t pinpoint the reason, but, then I realized that I had just finished a painting of her because I feel connected to her feminine energy and guidance. La Virgen was with me.
Then, a woman, who Cindy said might be an aunt, came forward. This figure has come up before in another psychic session, but I do not know an aunt on the other side, so we left it as is.
What followed was really interesting. Cindy guided me to a comfy table to lay down on, where she placed a blanket and eye mask on me. First, she had me take slow breaths, close my eyes, and relax. She then asked if I was ready to begin and I said yes. She turned on relaxing music and slowly began reiki. I could feel my body pulsating as she moved around me and I kept asking her what was happening. It was a first for me. As she touched certain areas of my body, like my liver area, I began to feel pain. She would have me breathe through the pain and ask me what was coming to mind as she worked. During this, my arm began shaking. Imagine electricity flowing through a wire, well that was what was happening to my right arm. I asked Cindy about it and she said it was my body releasing. Perhaps I was releasing stress, trauma, or anxiety, but that arm shook for the whole session!
Some time later, I did a little bit of soul searching and discussed points in my life that caused me grief or suffering. These moments helped me realize that a lot of my pain wasn’t my own, but was passed down from family members.
After my session, I went to the restroom and, when I got in there, my left ear was ringing loudly and I felt overwhelmed by it. I realized that it was my clairaudience coming to life. What that means is that someone was trying to communicate with me from the other side. The ringing went away after 15 seconds or so.
I left the session feeling happy and hopeful for my future.
FAST FORWARD.
Today, I connected with body to see why I continue feeling pain in muscles or certain areas. As I massaged my pain points, I began to meditate on my belief that I am not loved. What I realized was that one of the reasons I feel unloved is not because I am not loved, but because others around me feel unloved or unlovable. Thus, their actions and emotions toward me come with their beliefs and energy.
The truth is that we have to love ourselves as best as we can and also remember the positive moments that brought love into our lives- no matter how big or small. Maybe it was a friend, teacher, religion, animal, parent, or sibling. Build yourself on those positive moments instead of someone else’s lack or neglect. Also, its unhealthy to play the comparison game and expect everyone to meet you where you’re at. So, give it time, consider therapy or a reiki session, but make sure you are ready to know the truth. You are loved. Love yourself. Do your best. Have hope.
Everyone’s journey is different!
The Alchemy of Life 